Monday, May 29, 2006
8:50 PM
Hmm, today had my econs test. i think can pass lah... if still cannot pass, i also nth to say le lah. Was quite moody again in the morning, but then after that went to watch movie with class mates then suddenly my day like brighten up le.
We went to watch X-Men III today! Quite nice lah, but got a part is dam touching lah... i almost cried, the part when professor X died... so saddening lah, i can imagine myself in the shoes of the X-men, like suddenly the leader died... Sound quite stupid rite? i know... but thats just me lah... Then was also quite disappointed lah, the angel like boy with the wings rite? i tot he can do some new tricks or what lah, then turn up that he can only fly... so sian... But his wings dam nice lah! I BELIEVE I CAN FLY.... LOL!!! mad le. Then jean grey suddenly like resurrect like that, siao show... Then she become dam strong, what Class 5 mutants. dam funny... but overall, the show not bad lah.
After the show rite, i was suddenly dam happy lah... like it became a good day all of a sudden. also dunno why, hmm... But stupid mikhail suddenly dampen my mood lah... talk about some stuff then i became quite moody again... zzz...
But overall today was quite okay lah... and... I'm FLYING WITHOUT WINGS. haha, dam high about that wingy guy =)
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
8:50 PM
Hmm, today had my econs test. i think can pass lah... if still cannot pass, i also nth to say le lah. Was quite moody again in the morning, but then after that went to watch movie with class mates then suddenly my day like brighten up le.
We went to watch X-Men III today! Quite nice lah, but got a part is dam touching lah... i almost cried, the part when professor X died... so saddening lah, i can imagine myself in the shoes of the X-men, like suddenly the leader died... Sound quite stupid rite? i know... but thats just me lah... Then was also quite disappointed lah, the angel like boy with the wings rite? i tot he can do some new tricks or what lah, then turn up that he can only fly... so sian... But his wings dam nice lah! I BELIEVE I CAN FLY.... LOL!!! mad le. Then jean grey suddenly like resurrect like that, siao show... Then she become dam strong, what Class 5 mutants. dam funny... but overall, the show not bad lah.
After the show rite, i was suddenly dam happy lah... like it became a good day all of a sudden. also dunno why, hmm... But stupid mikhail suddenly dampen my mood lah... talk about some stuff then i became quite moody again... zzz...
But overall today was quite okay lah... and... I'm FLYING WITHOUT WINGS. haha, dam high about that wingy guy =)
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Saturday, May 27, 2006
8:50 PM
My life have just been like a rollar coaster ride these few days... Extreme ups and downs here and there. I can be dam sad on one day, but extremely happy on the other. Whats with me? haiz...
On wednesday rite, as i have mentioned earlier in my previous entry, it sux totally lah. But in contrast, right after wednesday on thursday, it was one of the best day i could ever have. Why is god making fun of me? K, before people start wondering why i always mention "god", i am not a christian! Actually, i am a buddhist( borned to be one, my family members are all buddist, so...) but i respect every religion. The "god" mentioned in my entries is just a general term for either buddha(for buddist), the Lord (for christians) or Allah ( for the hindus). As i was saying, why is god making fun of me by making my days so extreme. Its like... haiz... nvm. Anyway, friday continued to be quite okay but today i was quite moody. Get what i mean? One day good, one day bad...
I also dunno why i was moody today as there is really no reason for me to... maybe just one. But overall, today was quite fun. Morning went school to "study" abit before starting the alumni training at 10a.m. Just as we(me, mik, juan cheng, si kai & yixin) tot we were the only ones coming for this training, yi yu and bro shang yu, xiu yi, vincent, kenny, jun yi, jian ting & edmund soon arrived and it turns out to be the most successful alumni training with the most number of ppl training. let me count, hmm... 7 black belts(excluding coach) & 6 coloured belts... Then we trained sparring and took a group photo. Mik, xiu yi and juan cheng injured their legs during the training but no one was actually complaining or anything, it was just too fun =). Then we went lot 1 and have our lunch at food cuisine lor... then nth much happen le lor. Then mik and me took bus home while yixin, juan cheng and sikai returned back school. My day just ended like this lor, like nth much. Once reached home, i bathe and slack in front of com before falling asleep in dad's bed.
Also dunno why, i feel dam moody lah... Its like, i am filled with troubles but i dunno what is it that is bothering me... I am confused of what i want and what i plan to do. If only i can understand. If only i hadn't meet who i am not suppose to meet lah. Things will eventually turn out well... this phrase doesn't always works on me.
Suddenly westlife's "you raise me up" seems so appealing to me... here goes the first stanza(nicest!):
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary,
When troubles come and my heart burdened be.
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
Not all girls likes tanned and dark guys. You are not that fair, i am also very fair... Are you hinting?
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
8:41 PM
How bad can one's day get? Is there a limit to how many bad days one can have? To me, the answer is no limit... I just had another bad day today, and its really bad...
I started off today feeling very moody, cause today got chem and maths lecture, then gonna stay focused to learn as much as i can cause i can't lag behind le. Then somemore got physics test to worry bout, plus i wasn't feeling too happy yesterday nite... And then the day carried on, physics test seemed easy, but i dun think i am gonna do well... TKD started without jasmine and alex. Where were they? they pon it and jasmine was crying. She had been scolded by the coach, she was a poor soul. I started TKD training with a conversation with coach, he asked me about my exco. I feel pressured by what he say and what he demands of me. nvm, i continued the training. Kana scolded by jessie and yi yu. Jessie said, " i can't imagine how one can forget their pattern. Its the basic foundation for you to pass your TKD exams and get your black belt.". Let me ask u smth jessie, if i teach you physics now and i ask u again 6 and half years later without u practising it, will u remember what i have taught? Will u remember all the equations and definitions? Then yi yu wants me and mikhail to learn finish all the 10 colour belt patterns(up to brown 1) by next week and he is gonna test us. If we fail his test, we can have two choices to take. One is to come to training without wearing our black belt dobok, the other is to do whatever the white belt does and lose our blackbelt privilege. Either way, its degrading ourselves cause he feels that we are not fit to be blackbelts if we dunno the patterns. Okay okay, whatever u say, i step down as president and quit TKD k? zzz... How to make everyone happy? u tell me lah... That is not the end yet. As i was walking home, i realised that the TKD book Xiu yi had lend me a moment ago was gone. I left it in school beside the table sir was sitting at just now. For your info, it cost 50 bucks and my 50 bucks just flew away. How bad can one's day get? U tell me...
I suddenly have the thought that my adidas dobok is cursed... I am not up to it... just do whatever you want to me bah... i can't retaliate, i have no strength left le... Take what is left of me and just go...
I'm such a failure... failing in everything that i do... failing in everything i undertake... failing in this, failing in that... i wish to hide now, away from reality... i'm such a coward... such a loser...
When I am down and, oh my soul, so wearyWhen troubles come and my heart burdened beThen, I am still and wait here in the silence Until you come and sit a while with me.
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Saturday, May 20, 2006
8:37 PM
Yeeepeee, got my Adi Champion Dobok today! haha, finally my savings paid of? lol...
Went for dental appointment today at 9.20 b4 rushing to school for TKD training in school at 10 o'clock. Lucky got dad to send me there, if not sure late like siao de lah. Haha, but quite sad lah cause both my foot were injured today then like wasted 1 day of training. Can't really do the kicks well. :( Nvm lah, i'll try harder next time when my ankle recovers.
Then after that, i went plaza wanting to do a medical check-up(OBS need it) but then the nurse there tell me that the doctor will only be around at 3.15. I was like zzz cause at that time it was only 1 o'clock. So i asked Jie ying where she was and went to find her. She was with peggy and jia wei and a bunch of HPPS kids playing their "Amazing Race". The kids so small so funny lah... haha... Time just fly and i returned back to plaza for my medical check-up at around 3.30. Then the worst part came, the nurse told me that i must take a tetanus jab. i was quite scared at first(i've always been a big PUSSY when it comes to jab), but then it doesn't seem to hurt when the doc gave me the jab. It is only now that my hand seem to be numb and a little painful. The doc say that the effect of the jab can last for 3-5years =).
So after the check-up, i went home lor. nth to do mahz. Then do abit of hw before dozing off. I was dam tired lah, slept at 2a.m. last nite and woke up at 8 this morning. Haha, guess whats the reason for me sleeping at 2a.m. last nite? i was chatting with her. =) She was doing her pw and so we sort of just chat along the way lor. I was just wondering why we could like chat quite well on msn but when met up face to face, i just can't seem to talk to her or look at her. Haiz, i guess that act of rashness that time is really a big mistake which ruined me. Even min yi knows about it lah. nvm, just hope that things will get better as time passes and we wouldn't be so awkward anymore yea? haha...
Btw, heard from mik that samantha wasn't feeling that well now( as in her mood), hope she can get over it and stay cheerful? Jie ying too, JIA YOU? ahha.... Mik ah mik, sorry for suaning u todae lah. But it was the only time i can suan u lor. U just recall the number of times u suan me in school lah, this is nth lor... =) but then, i think i went abit overboard lah... so.... sorry hoh.
Nth much to say le lah. bb all...
Waiting For Her To Come Online...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Sunday, May 14, 2006
9:31 PM
Hmm... Todae was another day at home, so sian. After i sprained my ankle on friday morning, i can't seem to be able to walk properly so i wasn't able to go out. My opportunity cost? Sam's party, Saturday's Alumni Training & Dinner out with mom at mother's day. sian ah sian...
So at yesterday, we celebrated mother's day, with just pizza delivery at home... haiz sorry mommy, next year we go out for celebration k? ahha...
Btw, have been quite into gunbounding these days, altho it doesn't seem that fun. haiz, guess i am dam sian at home. I also realise that the main prob with my com that doesn't allow me to play any game b4 is that my graphics card driver have been deleted by dunno who! zzzz.... so i just reinstall it and taadaa! can play le =)
Thats about all, nth much to say le. Everyday so sian =(
blah blah blah...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Friday, May 12, 2006
4:36 PM
Wahh... feeling dam sick now. This morning went to play B ball with Ty, Kah hwee, Grant, Mik, Nigel, Ky & Gerrad. Then suddenly, i twisted my ankle while dribbling the ball... Can't even walk straight now lah. Then what worse is that i am down with a flu. My nose keep dripping with mucus Which is dam disgusting and irritating... ARGH! Then somemore because of this i can't join ty they all for lunch and also can't attend sam's house's "party" tonite. Dam farrked up... My ankle better be okay by wednesday( TKD day) if not i am going to go bonkers...
Just finished my part of the GPP, the research about nursing in singapore. Haiz, maybe later going out for dinner with family but the prob is, how am i suppose to walk in this state. ZzZ, if i can walk properly, i would have gone sam's house liao lor. Hmmm... maybe going for some gunbounding later. LOL! my class ppl suddenly go crazy over gunbound so i also join in abit lor, play with them, bond with them?
And yah, one very happy thingy. I AM GOING TO OBS FOR THE 2ND TIME IN HISTORY! YAY! from 6-10 of june. so shiok. hope to make more frens on this trip and most importantly have fun =). There might also be a 2 day 1 nite TKD camp from 3-4 june. Haha, holidays dam packed lah, but fun!
Its A Whole New World We Live In,Its A Whole New Way To See.Its A Whole New Place,With A Brand New Attitude...But U Still Gotta Catch'em All,And Be the Best That U Can Be...Ultimate song ... =)
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
11:43 PM
hmm... dam long nva update le... sry guys, cause i was busy with alot of stuff. Got SDP camp and alot of shit tests here and there, no time to update.
Today had TKD election and guess what, i was elected as the president for TKD club. I wasn't expecting this lor. I tot i could become VP and mik becoming president and everything turn out exactly as we had expected. But haiz, sorry leh mik. The seniors and teachers duwan mik to be President as he is holding too many high ranking post such as ACM and House Vice Captain. Then they also nva put mik in VP post as they think that there will a power struggle. Aiya i dunno lah... and ya the reason for me not rejecting the president role is that i dun think that by rejecting it mik can become the president, they might put some white belt as the president. If thats the case, i would rather be the president. This is the first time i have no one above me ( in terms of ranking) and i am very lost. i hope that my TKD mates can help me and my seniors can guide me along the way? and most of all... i hope to be able to live up to the TKD president standard and contribute to the club.
Final decision:
President - Me
Vice-President 1 - Xiu Xuan
Vice-President 2 - Matthew Ta
Training IC - Mik
Asst. Training IC - Xiu Yi
Treasurer - Yi Xin
Asst. Treasurer - Si Kai
Admin Head - Janice
Asst. Admin Head - Yong Chang
Logistic Head - Juan Cheng
Asst. Logistic Head - Anthony
Welfare Head - Bao Ling
Asst. Welfare Head - Li Yan
Haiz... todae was not a very good day, feeling quite guilty now... happiness level 3/10 :(
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
8:42 PM
Hmm... Shld i be happy or angry? I've got a couple of new names lah... doesn't sound nice de lor. firstly, babababa boooon asss ( by grant ), then Red lobster ( by wen zong ) and lastly jason red, by me! ahha... i am so red lah. haiz, like i see everyone also blush. lol!
Btw, today's school was quite okay lah. The climax of the day was when we won JJC in rugby! 3 cheers for our school's rugby team's good effort? They did their best, i can tell. Heard from stella that if they win their next match, they can get a "plate"? like 1st in position get a throphy, second get medal and 3rd get plate? lol... Aiya nva win also nvm, get spoon also can. lol, mik say de! haha...
Sian lah, i tried to put yue ding by guang liang as my blog's song but the songs from bai du doesn't seem to work lor... haiz, guess i would have to find other links. Wasted alot of time on it yesterday lor...
All the tests coming up pretty soon, i've gotta buck up! Anyway, tml is TKD day... wee! haha.
GtG, Bye all! =)
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Monday, May 01, 2006
12:10 AM
We (me, sis wen zong, mik & grant) went to sentosa todae! We went palawan beach to play(for them) & to sun-tanned(for me). Had lotsa fun and LOTSA TANNING, tan till my whole body red. I sure hope that these red patches can turn darker and not back to WHITE skin. Haiz...
Then after that we went K box? nigel and shan yuan joined us too! My sis dam pro lah, she bargained the price from each person 20 bucks to 14 bucks per person. So happily, we went to SING OUR HEARTS OUT. lol... I think i sang most of the time cause the others are so SHY they dun wanna sing using the mic? zzz... At around 8 +, we finish our "k-boxing" & went to the food court at lot 1 to have our dinner. Saw yu min and her family there too. We crap alot and finally went home. Btw in case u all didn notice, except for my sis no gals were there with us. Its not that we forgotten to invite any gals with us. i did that on purpose in fact, cause i dun wish to let any of my "gal-friends" see my PURELY white body & the red lobster skin after tanning, so... haha!
Wah sian sia, was trying to do my maths maclurin's series assignment given by uncle tham but then it just seem so bloody hell difficult lah. Had some probs with physics Forces tutorial too. Sian, i seem to be laggin behind badly in studies. That cannot happen! i must buck up... And yah, i am officially broke liao lah. Keep going out whenever wherever... So heres the plan, for the next few weeks i am not going for any "outings". In addition, i am going home for dinner for the next few weeks too to save money and also save me the scoldings from my parents.
That shld be all there is todae bah... Tml going to have PW group meeting at 9.30, so tired sia... everyday is so stressful, so rush...
The problems just keep coming to me... She is one, She is another & She is the third. Haiz, whats with me? Hope that things will eventually be okay...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
