8:41 PM

How bad can one's day get? Is there a limit to how many bad days one can have? To me, the answer is no limit... I just had another bad day today, and its really bad...

I started off today feeling very moody, cause today got chem and maths lecture, then gonna stay focused to learn as much as i can cause i can't lag behind le. Then somemore got physics test to worry bout, plus i wasn't feeling too happy yesterday nite... And then the day carried on, physics test seemed easy, but i dun think i am gonna do well... TKD started without jasmine and alex. Where were they? they pon it and jasmine was crying. She had been scolded by the coach, she was a poor soul. I started TKD training with a conversation with coach, he asked me about my exco. I feel pressured by what he say and what he demands of me. nvm, i continued the training. Kana scolded by jessie and yi yu. Jessie said, " i can't imagine how one can forget their pattern. Its the basic foundation for you to pass your TKD exams and get your black belt.". Let me ask u smth jessie, if i teach you physics now and i ask u again 6 and half years later without u practising it, will u remember what i have taught? Will u remember all the equations and definitions? Then yi yu wants me and mikhail to learn finish all the 10 colour belt patterns(up to brown 1) by next week and he is gonna test us. If we fail his test, we can have two choices to take. One is to come to training without wearing our black belt dobok, the other is to do whatever the white belt does and lose our blackbelt privilege. Either way, its degrading ourselves cause he feels that we are not fit to be blackbelts if we dunno the patterns. Okay okay, whatever u say, i step down as president and quit TKD k? zzz... How to make everyone happy? u tell me lah... That is not the end yet. As i was walking home, i realised that the TKD book Xiu yi had lend me a moment ago was gone. I left it in school beside the table sir was sitting at just now. For your info, it cost 50 bucks and my 50 bucks just flew away. How bad can one's day get? U tell me...

I suddenly have the thought that my adidas dobok is cursed... I am not up to it... just do whatever you want to me bah... i can't retaliate, i have no strength left le... Take what is left of me and just go...

I'm such a failure... failing in everything that i do... failing in everything i undertake... failing in this, failing in that... i wish to hide now, away from reality... i'm such a coward... such a loser...

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit a while with me.

sun set or sun rise; up to us to decide

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