Saturday, September 30, 2006
3:47 PM
Weee... just had suki sushi with family! nice nice. saw asmond working there too btw...
Hmm, dad just brought up the issue of getting a new com and i think ITS A GREAT IDEA! our com just sux la... too lousy le. this time must get a good com, at least must be suitable for gaming? haha... i'm not a game freak tho, just need maybe abit of dota when your bored? or maybe just to get away from thoughts...
Yay, we also got a decent mouse le, like finally lor. previously bought 2 other mouse which cost me around 50 bucks la then just spoil like that... zzz, one of them spoilt one week after i buy it lor. so dam sucky la... Anyway, introducing my new mouse ---> RAZER KRAIT! haha... altho not as famous and good as its brothers the Diamondback and the Copperhead, i think Krait is just enuff and sufficient for me le. its cheaper by alot compared to the other Razer mouses too lor. Cost 55 bucks while Copperhead cost like 100+? yay... now can play DOTA without mouse keep shifting away le =)
Just to remind myself, promos is not over! there is still like 2 more papers spread over 4 more days? hmm... must work hard and promote with flying colours! :D after that then talk about games and going out bah... WHO WANNA GO OUT AFTER PROMOS? Maybe a brotherhood outing, a tkd outing and a mix hoodies outings bah... that is if they want lor... if duwan nvm then, i can just fill myself up with meaningful stuff =) enrich myself? maybe learn cooking? haha... we'll see about that la...
Anyway, thx to all those frens that cheered me up and care for me during this stressful promos period. u guys just rock =)
I've came to realise that it is not worth putting so much into your relationships cause mine just doesn't seem to work out everytime... Maybe its time i think about it le... Get a life and being so stupid will i? lol!!!
kk, time to try to go mug... Bye guys! GOOD LUCK FOR PROMOS ALL MY FRENS OUT THERE!
Wo hai you yi bei zi ke yi yong lai wang ji,Wo yi ding hui wang ji ni... Ni fang xin de li kai bah...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Thursday, September 28, 2006
9:32 PM
Hmm... mid-promos now. tml having chemistry exam...
These few days not too happy... sad stuff just occur to me whenever they could...
You said you were leaving... you wanted to keep a distance from me so that we could just let go easily... you really think so? well maybe you could... but i couldn't... i was actually very sad these few days, when you were so cold to me... when you treated me like a stranger...
why can't we just enjoy the happy days in front of us... i miss the memories... the happy moments... but i guess fate just disallow us to go back time... to rekindle our old happy moments...
When you had to look away When you don't have much to say... Thats when i love you... I love you... just that way...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Thursday, September 21, 2006
9:17 PM
Tired... really tired...
Studying the whole week study study study... what for? for promos... so what if i do well in promos? i will get promoted? so what if i get promoted? can go for A levels... so what if i do well in A levels? Can get into U and next time get a good Job... So what? earn more money and buy lotsa stuff... so what? then die lor... with the money? haiz... work so hard for what... no meaning, no meaning at all...
I suddenly feel so empty... I dunno what to do, dunno who to cry to... i'm really very tired... tired at the way things are, tired at the way i must study, tired at the way i must face each day...
What must we do to maintain things the way it is? What is it that is lacking for me to be happy everyday? Why can't things just remain the way there were... why must good things always end?
With each day passed, i'm just one step nearer to death so what is it that i'm living for? to wait for death to come? Then i shall just do so bah...
Promos starting in 4 days time... with each day passed i'm just nearer to A levels, to University, to good job, and to death... Just end it quick... so that sadness will not bother me futher...
Why can't good things stay? why must we just change things when they are good? why is life just so... why are you just so...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Friday, September 15, 2006
11:02 PM
Yeepee... Went to alan for haircut and just like what i've expected... a job well done =)
In fact, everyone ( grant, shan yuan, mik & me ) seemed to be quite happy with our new hairdo. =) that is the reason why i go back to alan's altho its abit more ex than other neighbourhood barber... cause he guarantees quality =)
Hmm... nth else to say le... promos coming soon so its time to put some time into studying...
To sock: GET WELL SOON! 3 days nva see u le hockey cap! hope your leg can get better soon and JIA YOU FOR PROMOS! may the force, be with u... lol!
To all my frens: Good luck for promos and enjoy yer life =)
When the time is right... do not lose your opportunity cause this opportunity might be once in a lifetime...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Sunday, September 10, 2006
8:53 PM
Why cry only when you found out that you can't finish your hw? why complain when u realise that there is this probability that u can't get promoted... Its not like you have no time to do your hw, you have tons of time, more than me in fact. Its not like you have no time to study for your promos, you just have not been putting time into studying... If only you would listen to my constant reminders to ask you to change...
Why is everyone depending on me to do things? What if i go jump off the building and die just like that, are u guys gonna die too? come on la, learn to survive on your own... i cannot always be there for u guys. when faced with obstacles, clear it and not just come to me hoping i can help u all deal with it... argh...
I really wish to help you guys sometimes, but i myself is unsure of whether i'm gonna make it too. i'm scared too, i'm afraid too... i am not god, i cannot predict if i will make it...
I wanna hide.... i wanna hide away from the world...
Give me a place with peace, give me a place with hope. so that i can live happily...
U guys just leave me alone plz...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
12:24 AM
Had nice bbq yesterday... stayed at mik's hse till this morning... Then came home and sleep bah... Not really in the mood to blog much now...
bye.
Ai ne, ni de ai ne Ni ne, wo de ni ne Chong qian de, na xie kuai le Bian le, mei le Nan dao ni zhen she de...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Sunday, September 03, 2006
7:18 PM
Holidays are here but i just dun feel the atmosphere... Is this how everyone feels or is it just me? cause i just see everyone mugging as usual...
I was angry and disappointed in you... thats what i claimed... but i came to realise that it was only the sensitive side of me that was reacting to this... i shldn't have quarrelled with you... things are just not the same now... maybe you weren't the one for me, maybe we are not suitable for each other... we shld just end it now... i will not bother you again, i shall not be that close to you again... all we should do now is just be normal frens, like what you have always claimed we were...
I used to be jealous that you were talking about other guys, i used to be crazy and mad over you... but all these are gonna change... cause things are just not the way they were before...
You msged me telling me you're sorry for what you've done, i replied saying that its okay... but is that really all that i wanted to say? i wanted to say more, but i couldn't... i'm afraid that once i start, i'll never stop and we will be back to what used to be in the past. but thats not what i wanted now, i want to forget you and move on... cause we are not meant to be...
My coach was replaced, my tournament was lost. My shin is injured, my days are ruined...
now all i can do is to stay at home for the next few days and maybe try to mug abit... haiz... think now the only thing for me to look forward to is the BROTHERHOOD BBQ on friday at mik's house. i hope it turns up well, really hope so...
Mei You Ni Wo Hui Shi ShuiXin Ting Zai Na Li Dou Bu Dui,Ba Jing Tian Cha Diao Zhuo Tian Kong Bai Yi Pian...Na Yi Tian Zai Na Yi TianKe Yi Ji Xu Wei Wan Qing Jie,Zai Zhe Jiao Cha Dian Shui Pei Zai Ni Sheng Bian...Jiu Suan Quan Shi Jie Dou Yao Ba Ni Fou DingYe Bu Neng Rang Wo Fang Qi Ni...Jiu Suan Wo Men De Guo Qu Dou Mei You Le Zheng Ming...Wo Yi Ran Shou Hu Ni....
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide