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Thursday, September 21, 2006

9:17 PM

Tired... really tired...

Studying the whole week study study study... what for? for promos... so what if i do well in promos? i will get promoted? so what if i get promoted? can go for A levels... so what if i do well in A levels? Can get into U and next time get a good Job... So what? earn more money and buy lotsa stuff... so what? then die lor... with the money? haiz... work so hard for what... no meaning, no meaning at all...

I suddenly feel so empty... I dunno what to do, dunno who to cry to... i'm really very tired... tired at the way things are, tired at the way i must study, tired at the way i must face each day...

What must we do to maintain things the way it is? What is it that is lacking for me to be happy everyday? Why can't things just remain the way there were... why must good things always end?

With each day passed, i'm just one step nearer to death so what is it that i'm living for? to wait for death to come? Then i shall just do so bah...

Promos starting in 4 days time... with each day passed i'm just nearer to A levels, to University, to good job, and to death... Just end it quick... so that sadness will not bother me futher...

Why can't good things stay? why must we just change things when they are good? why is life just so... why are you just so...

sun set or sun rise; up to us to decide

welcome

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.

There was nothing I could say ...

Ng Xue Yang Jason
20 Twenty
21st July 1989
Cancer
~~BPPS~~,~~BPGHS~~,~~PJC~~

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Jason

WANTS

Everyone to have their fair share of joy. smile.
WORLD PEACE (:
To be happy.

To be able to spend more time with my friends and family.

thankyew

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