Tuesday, October 31, 2006
6:28 PM
Wah, dam long cannot blog sia... blogger got prob, zzz....
Anyway, congrats to all TKD members for passing the grading. u guys did well, keep it up okay? sian, there might be TKD training on 15,22 & 29 of november at NTC from 2.30 - 5.30... haiz...
Altho holidays start le, there is still no holiday mood as usual. This whole week still needa go back school! argh... friday is A level chinese le but i still haven touch any chinese, lol... Then next monday got PW open presentation... haiz, busy holidays...
Cut my hair today, shorter le but still okay la. Actually wanted to change my hairstyle de, but i just dunno how to tell the barber... so haiz, think still the same lor...
VERY VERY BORED! I want TKD outing, BROTHERHOOD outing, HOODS outing & family outing? lol... Swimming, b ball & sentosa... kk =)
Looking for chalet and bbq this holidays, overseas trip with family too...
Bye...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Saturday, October 28, 2006
10:15 PM
First thing first, GOOD LUCK TO TKD MEMBERS HAVING THEIR GRADING TML! Hope u guys can all pass the promotion and some, a double promotion even... =)
Hmm... these holidays are packed, and for the first time with different stuff... Sick and tired of ppl saying that i'm skinny or whatsoever. U all think i want de meh? Can u guys just think of ppl's pride when u all say that... I was once very unconfident of myself due to my crooked teeth but was getting okay when i had braces on... Then now, haizz.... Looks like everyone is just forcing me to get fatter, then i will lor... I just duwan to be a loser...
I've never really done anything for myself before... all i did, was for others... i care alot of what others may think of me... thats why i'm affected...
Dunno why but i just blogged my true feelings out tonite... haiz...
Going to sleep le, must wake up early tml... cya...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Friday, October 27, 2006
12:51 AM
Sadness engulfed me... dunno why... Really feel very sad now...
why am i slacking around at this time... shldn't i be sleeping le? nth to do then sleep lor, but i just can't sleep...
WMO keep going down... dun feel like playing now le, just wanna slack around, have my favourite pasttime... think...
Why can't i just be perfect, so that i can handle anything that is ahead of me, so that i can solve any problems i wanted to... Guess no one is perfect and no one doesn't really exist.
I'm the way i am... so be it...
Mixed feelings... this just sux... it really do...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
9:50 PM
Not bad, today's ice skating was quite fun... Just that we didn go for steamboadt cause tml got school and everyone wanted to reach home early bah...
taught all of them how to skate? hope i'm a good teacher... tho i myself got lots to learn bout skating too... ahha, fell down while trying to do cross-over, so dam sian la... btw, Ding Zhou is such a good skater la. haha, he can do cross-over... i needa learn from him! haha...
Went to Ajisen after that for ramen, had a paiku ramen which was quite okay. still think the ramen from RAMEN RAMEN is nicer yea? lol... then went to walk around IMM before taking 176 home...
The talk today was fine, just that there is too little time... hope that we have chance like this today to talk again bah... Altho we didn talk much, i could feel that u care... thx =)
Tml have TKD training, last training b4 the grading. Hope the members are well prepared for the grading! lets all get promoted with flying colours =)
The past has long gone... The future is us to make...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Monday, October 23, 2006
8:25 PM
Hmm, got back promo results le... Okay la, not too bad... but not too good either =(
Summary Of Results:
G.P. : C
Maths: B
Physics: B
Chemistry: B
Economics: B
Chinese: B
zzz, all Bs lor... not even a single A. Promised mum to get at least 3 As, but then now nva fulfil promise. haiz...
Anyway, most of us did farely okay... But lay teng and xue ting were a little bad, hope they can promote with us too yea? GOOD LUCK!
Tml is TKD outing, going ice-skating and steam boat. But the confirmed number of ppl going is not done up yet, alot of them still haven reply me!!! zzz... Just hope everything will turn up well tml. =)
Today watched "The Prestige" with mik, aloy & quek. Not bad, quite nice but after watching the movie like abit uncomfortable with it, cause it involves clones... hmm... But i will still recommend u guys to watch it, cause its nice =]
K la gtg le. Hope all my frens can cheer up no matter what the promos results are yea? CHEERS!
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Sunday, October 22, 2006
12:17 AM
Hmm... lousy day la. stupid deepavali made the school close. No tkd training today cause of that. Met up with the TKD ppl after that to go Plaza Singapura and walk walk? haha....
Then came home at 4 and went out shortly again with family to Jack's Place for dinner... Guess who went for it? Me, my family, "Si Yi" (fourth aunt) &.... EVE. haha Nigel, before u start coming to me wanting to kill me, i just want u to know she joined us for dinner because she and my sis are planning to go out after that... so yea...
Tio scammed in WMO, sian diao...
Yesterday Open house was a success for TKD, but not a happy one for me...
I read your blog... if you are reading this, i just wanna let u know that there is just so much misunderstanding that we need to clear up... i know you're upset, i am too... but why are we so, the answer simple... it is because we care... we just do... i'm sorry... but we really need to talk bah...
"hurt, torn and disturbed.you did it and you better not regret." what did i do... sorry then...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Thursday, October 19, 2006
7:11 PM
Had another boring day in school. shldn't even have gone school today... went to school just for a good game of rounders during P.E. but guess what, P.E. turns up to be orienteering... haiz... 3 hrs of chinese and 2 hrs of p.w... ended my day by ponning Econs.
Tml is PJC Open house le, to all frens: COME DOWN AND HAVE A LOOK! =) TKD booth in the hall, hope that everything turns out fine... Tml's gonna be a long day too, all the way to 6... Haiz... Then the whole weekend packed again and then monday... Doomsday?
Everyday seemed packed... but i dun seemed to be interested in anything that i'm doing... why is that so... is it that i've lost the interest in life again, or is it that i've lost the trust in humans?
Anyway, just hope that tomorrow can be better bah... everytime i say this, the next day is gonna be a disaster. it always happened, wonder if this time is the same... haiz...
P.S.: ACJC Concert on 3,4 November! Staring " beauty & the beast ( Gothic Version )! Frens interested plz approach stella for the tix! she will be performing =]
Farking liars should all die in hell... losers...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Monday, October 16, 2006
7:44 PM
Hmm... today wasn't really fun. was quite sian too...
Had lessons, tiring ones... especially chem which is ever so taxing. tml still got chem lec for mdm goh from 3-4.30, then 5-6 got make up chem lec... haiz... this whole week dam packed... not a single day to pon...
Hmm... now my life just revolves around WMO le bah, any frens keen to join me in playing? will try to get myself indulge in it... =)
Hmm, one more week till the release of results. GOOD LUCK TO ALL FRENS OUT THERE, hope u guys can pass with flying colours =]!
The chapter has ended sadly after just a timespan of 1 month... just like the last time... just that this time round it is with different characters... What to do? smile...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Saturday, October 14, 2006
5:55 PM
Hmm... just returned from school. had a tiring workshop today which lasted from 9-5... but it was quite okay tho, not as boring as i tot...
Reached school at 7.45 instead of 8.45( thx to xiu yi... argh!) then talk to the TKD ppl for a while before going for the workshop... Met new frens there and enjoyed myself during the workshop...
Now just came home but going off soon to celebrate my nephew's b dae =) ...
Going to Sentosa tml to sun-tan : ) haha...
GTG! bye all!
4 days le and still counting, i wonder when it'll stop... i miss u so...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Thursday, October 12, 2006
5:22 PM
wah, what a boring day la... today school was so sian, had lessons till 11.30 which comprises of 3 periods C.T., 2 periods P.E. and 1hr break before having the stupid career seminar shit...
The school really siao de lor, they force us to stay in school till 4.30 and sort of like seal up the whole school. zzz... They made the security guards check the I.D. of every student that wants to go out of school and made them stop everyone that is in J1 from leaving the school. WTH la... so had to staying in school till 4.30. dam tired la. Fortunately for kb, adam & kh, they pon school la. so shiok...
Wah, now i really got no life le. everyday after school just come home... haiz, shldn't time after promos be fun? haiz... why is singapore so sian de ah? other than movies, sentosa, ice skating, cycling & k box, like nth else le... zzz... hmm but anyway, might be going suntanning on sunday! =) now really turning into sheep le, my skin like turning whiter and whiter... lol!
k la, think i go nap awhile. haha... these few days really lack sleep, gonna sleep at 10.30 to nite to compensate back? haha...
Maybe i shld just let go... but i just can't...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Monday, October 09, 2006
4:52 PM
Haiz, got a new com... but not really happy about it. the reason is because this com comes with a cost...
Friday wasn't exactly a good day for me... was sad over the letter stuff, then came home... parents quarreling... again... its always because of the same problem and i'm just so sick and tired of it... i just have no one to turn to... no one can help me, no one can support me, no one can make them not quarrel... it just have to happen...
Everytime my dad and my mum quarrel, if they manage to resolve the problem ( temporary), they will buy us something good, maybe a feast or some stuff. this time is a new com... tho i love this new com, i just dun wish for my parents to quarrel again... why can't i have a happy family just like all my other frens? why must they always quarrel?
The cold war between them just dragged on for the whole weekend... spoiling my whole weekend...
Feeling really miserable at the way my life is... i cried... again... haiz.. i'm just wondering, when can not be a loser and cry at every little thing... but i just can't help it... my life is screwed with problems in all 3 aspects. Family, relationships & studies... there is not a time where i can just be freed from either one of these 3 problems... but this time is worse, 2 came at the same time...
As much as i wanted to turn to you, i couldn't... cause things are just not the same anymore... U said before that i wasn't there for u when u needed me but i just wanna ask too, were u there for me when i needed u? But i dun blame it on you, cause u have no idea of any of these things...
Hmm... just hope that things can turn up for the better...
Why must things end up this way... i couldn't take it anymore... i'm just so sorry for everything i've done... i'm just a stupid liar...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Friday, October 06, 2006
1:20 PM
Sorry. my bad...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Thursday, October 05, 2006
12:53 AM
yay, promos finally ended! altho its like only 1.5 weeks of exams, it took like forever to finish... during this period of time, many stuff happened... many unhappy stuff to be exact... however, i shall not let this obstacle of life put me down.
I once hear this from somewhere, "we shld always work hard for what we want and not give up when we are faced with an obstacle, for it is thru this that we achieve success". True indeed, we shld always work hard for what we want and what we want might not always seem that easy to get.
Therefore from today onwards, i shall start on a new project, project P. I shall work hard to get what i want... to get back what used to be mine... to start everything afresh...
Its a whole new world we live in,
its a whole new way to see...
Its a whole new place with a brand new attitude,
but you still gotta catch'em all...
I'll be the best that u can't beat... =)
Kk. late le, time to sleep... nites all...
its only after u lose something that u realise how important it was to you... that you can never do without it...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
12:34 PM
I know i shldn't be blogging bout such stuff now since tml is my physics paper but i felt a need to cough things out...
I knew your intentions all along but i just can't believe u said the things u said yesterday... that was why i was so affected by it... you wanted me to focus on my studies but to me... that is just an excuse... you wanted to shun away from me cause you're scared that we might just fall too deep into it... so deep that we will not be able to part when we need to... and we know we need to...
But the thing is that no matter how hard we can try to hide, we can try to resist... there are still feelings inside us... we are afterall, human beings...
You tried to ignore me, for no good reason... all of a sudden... you said before that its rude to ignore ppl and u will never ignore ppl, but i was the guinea pig u tested it on... we could have talk things out, you could have told me what we can do to sort things out but you didn... you chose to run away from your feelings, from me... How then do you expect me to treat you from now onwards? Pretend that we 've never met before, pretend that we dunno each other? is that what u really want?
But after all that i've said... i will not blame you... cause i know that is your character. you tend to hide away from things u dunno how to react to. i've accepted this characteristic of you long ago... Like what you've asked me to, i've jolly well accepted it... to not harbour any hopes on you...
Looks like the best that we can be now is frens... if you still want me as a fren...
You've shattered my heart with that sentence... but i love you anyway...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Monday, October 02, 2006
10:43 PM
Just what is the fucking problem with my life... i just dun get it... fark off...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
