9:05 AM

Omg, woke up last nite due to a nightmare... scary scary, it just troubles me... how am i suppose to solve it. shit

Going out with TKD ppl later for death note 2 movie + dinner + countdown at marina bay. Hope it would be fun. then night will ton over at esquire(sp?). But i think i won't be able to stay up all night cause i slept only at 2 last night and was waken up by my cousin's call at 8+ saying they are coming to my house. oh well. hope i can stay awake later for quite some time.

Things are no longer the same but what to do? ------> smile! ( adapted from sock hong ). I've come clear things with myself yesterday and i've grew to accept alot of things. Somethings just must be treated impartially and we can't let our personal feelings affect what is going on. True that i confused my feelings with the truth last few days or even weeks and couldn't accept what just collapse on me. However if i just fall like this i will just be a weakling, and whom i always call a bastard. Sometimes is what we do that matters, i said b4 so it doesn't really matter what the outcome is. I did my part and i've fufilled my duties. The rest is up to fate to see if i will pull thru it.



Believe in that one special day... when miracles happen...

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10:43 PM

Cut my hair, short hair boy now...

Grant got stung by bees today, zzz. Shldn't have let him went farmmart there alone with Justin just now, if i were to go, maybe i can share some bites. lol! Hope he gets well soon! DUN BE STUBBORN BOY, GO SEE A DOCTOR!

Nva go buy bag at queensway with sock and JL just now cause sock said got other hockey girls going. If i were to go, i will feel like an outcast. ahha, so might as well forget it.

Tired... going sleep soon.

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1:10 AM

CIP was great today. Actually, not really great. haha, contradicting but, it is just so bah. haha.

I went CIP alone, as in there is only me and me doing it from the NYAA team. At first shld have han rui, swee chang & fang xuan, but all ps me to do alone. nvm, alone then alone lor. So i reached science centre DRENCHED! zzz... then was scheduled to stay by QUASI at I-SPACE for the whole day. its freezing lor, I-SPACE alrdy so cold le then somemore i was drenched. nvm... one more unacceptable thing, I STYLED MY HAIR FOR 25 MINUTES TODAY TO MAKE IT LOOK NICE CAUSE I TOT TODAY IS THE LAST DAY I AM DOING IT CAUSE I'M GONNA CUT TML LE BUT THEN IT JUST RAINED! zzz ^%^&*#^&#*&# You just wanna go against me eh u heaven? NVM! ahah... by the way, one gal(mixed blood) approached me to take photo with her! WAHAHA =P felt so flattered. YEA YEA BHB OR WHAT U GUYS MAY SAY, i just feel good about it, what can u all do? :P

Then went causeway to have dinner with kh and min yi. Then went below kh house and talk, yet again ^^. We talked about all sorts of things again, so so shiok. Everything i didn dare to tell everyone just blurp out in front of him. ahha, my true self. Alot of self-awareness discovered too, i realise the reason behind why i did somethings. ahah, feeling great now.

And yea, kh told me about like the girls he feel that he had let down before last time... he felt bad about that, really upset. but he also told me smth wor, he told me, tho having said so... he still love WAN YAN most. He has been wanting to let her know he felt bad about the girls stuff quite some time ago le but he is just afraid that it will like damage their relationship, he just didn know how to put it. He wanted to just be true with her, honest with everything but he didn wanna lose her. haha... WAN YAN! Now u know how much he likes u? ^^

Anyway, I ALSO GOT MY FREN BACK! Yeeepeee.... haha, now i won't feel lonely anymore, i hope? haha. will treasure u my fren and i will never let u off again. WAHAHAH =P



Peace of mind... Its all in the mind

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9:52 PM

Zzz... stupid earthquake in taiwan caused the internet to be slower than ever... CAN'T EVEN UPLOAD PICTURES! *($#&*#^%@^&%@

Nvm, also nth much to upload. just the new pic of my mp3. Sad to say, i can't have what i want again. White colour out of stock, so i had to settle with black. haiz, how i wish my mp3 didn spoil. i also dunno whats the reason lor, just spoil. everything just occur without a reason. Yes, so now i have an ugly black Zen V Plus like that of xue ting's. Sorry xue ting, i didn mean to copy u but they just ran out of stocks for my nice white mp3. besides, who would wanna copy a kuku. =P

Studied in school today.

tml CIP alone. so sian. nvm...

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1:16 AM

Today was another sad day... my new companion drop dead before me =(

The Zen V Plus my dad bought me for christmas gift yesterday just spoiled. I also dunno what happen... it was working fine last nite and this morning until the time when i walk out of my house to the bus stop. when i tried to on it nth happen. at first i tot it was the battery that might have gone flat but when i plugged it into the com just now, it just didn even light up or charge or even got detected by the com. haiz, disappointed & sad... just bought yesterday de then today spoil le. almost couldn't find the receipt to claim my warranty but luckily for my younger sis, i found it. thx sis... think tml after studying with sock i'll go down to westmall and get this mp3 fixed bah.

Anyway, today b hood outing was quite fun. we met at 12.30 at pending bus stop and went down to harbourfront on 963. then had lunch at harbour front coffeeshop there and proceed on to Vivo to buy movie tix and did some window shopping. Watched Night In The Museum at 4.20, omg man it was nice and hilarious. lol! And because of the fact that most of the tix were sold out, we only manage to get the front row seats. ahha, and guess what? B hood just did something abnormal again. we sat on the floor instead of the seats to watch the movie. ^5 man, lol! we are the champions and no one could do anything to us. we just enjoyed it. Night In The Museum is a dam nice movie i would say and i highly recommend it. Hilarious okay... lol.

Then after movie had dinner at pasta mania and stop by at Pacific Company Cafe for some catching up and exchanging of christmas gifts. Then xue ting went home first b4 we all went home on 963.

Just met hui li in plaza at 11+ to get the physics notes from her and sat awhile in mac to talk with kh and ty.

Going to school tml to study with sock and maybe going to westmall after that.




Bye my love... =( sad

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10:11 PM

Got Zen V Plus as christmas gift from dad! Thx alot dad ^^

Look forward to tml's b hood outing watching Night at the museum and hanging around Vivo!

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5:59 PM

Pub 7 was fun. Met new frens like sebastian & maverick. They were nice ppl. Played Pool and sang my hearts out...

Sorrows forgotten, duwan to think about them anymore. the more i think, i will only hurt myself more and more. The damage is caused and there is no point trying to heal the wound.

Looking forward to B hood outing on the 26 of december. ^^


MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!

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6:18 PM

Went to bed at 12a.m.
Slept at 2a.m.
Woke up at 5a.m.
Slept
Woke up at 7a.m.
Reached school at 8a.m.
Left school at 10a.m.
Reached science centre at 11a.m. for CIP
Left for home at 5p.m.

Tired...

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9:20 AM

Feel that my body is falling le, just went to the loo again just now. Yesterday morning is the same too, more than once... But fortunately my fever is getting better now.

Yesterday was a "waiting" day. But having said that doesn't mean i regret doing what i did yesterday cause i knew it was what i had to do. I did my part and it was all that matters. Tho it was until nite that i could actually speak up, at least i did.

Hope by tonite all my sickness would be gone as we are going to sam's and there is no point going there being sick. Haven been to sam's for quite some time le and this time i am going there for 2 main reasons. One is to get back to the hoods and the second is to get back another fren. This fren is important to me and i wouldn't wanna forsake him just like that. I believe that nth in the world can't be resolved and its just a matter of how much u put into resolving it. I will try my best to do my part and i just hope that fren of mine will do the same too.

Anyway, thx mik for the indecent gift u've got me from jap. tho its abit erm obscence, it is what u would normally do bah =P Thx min yi and yixin too for the red plush toy/keychain u guys got me from malaysia, it looks cute.

And yea last thing, i wonder when my christmas greetings will arrive. haha, i sent out christmas greetings to B hood and TKD ppl! hope u guys receive my christmas cards and all the best in whatever u guys do. Tho many of us went separate ways, my heart will always be with u guys. U guys will nva be alone, cause i will always to here to help, maybe just for u guys =D


Merry Christmas all!


From now onwards, i'll be my own judge. No on tells me what to do and what not to. I live my own life, i lead my own life.

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10:42 PM

Wonder if anyone heard of songs from lion king b4, i just find this song meaningful so i decide to post it up. hope you guys will like it. btw, it is call "We Are One". i just love it...

We Are One

As you go through life you'll see
There is so much that we
Don't understand.
And the only thing we know
Is things don't always go
The way we planned.

But you'll see every day
That we'll never turn away,
When it seems all your dreams come undone.
We will stand by your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride.
We are more than we are,
We are one.

If there's so much I must be
Can I still just be me
The way I am?
Can I trust in my own heart
Or am I just one part
Of some big plan?

Even those who are gone
Are with us as we go on.
Your journey has only begun.
Tears of pain,
Tears of joy,
One thing nothing can destroy . . .
Is our pride, deep inside,
We are one.

We are one, you and I
We are like the earth and sky.
One family under the sun.
All the wisdom to lead,
All the courage that you'll need . . .
You will find when you see
We are one . . .


Dedicated to all the families in the world ^^ it just bond everyone together and tells u that your family is simply the best! =D

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12:56 AM

Maybe lay teng and min yi are rite...

Maybe we shld just forgive and forget. maybe things aren't the way they seemed.

I shld just try to stay out of such mess next time... maybe not even get the whole thing triggered.




Just watched a nice show on HBO, its regarding christmas de. Smth like christmas shld be enjoyed with family and not alone. Its just so meaningful and right la. thx show ^^

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9:42 PM

Hmm, today was another boring day bah. Was actually planning to go to PS to shop for X mas gifts and watch movie with Min Yi de, but then last minute change of plans...

Cousin was admitted to hospital so had to go visit her. Hmm, heard its because she has a lack of platlets which cause her to have lesser red blood cells and unable to recover her wounds. Hope she get well soon bah.

Tml going PS's carrefour to shop for saturday's bbq stuff with jc.

Hope saturday would be fun. Dunno why but this whole week dam lonely. Most of my frens overseas or not on mainland singapore, some not free due to gf or work, family overseas in malaysia... haiz. nvm... i will live thru this

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8:50 PM

Finally finished my 2 days of Metro SIF at sengkang with min li. Tho i always tot she was a bad person, today i really talk to her from the bottom of my heart. and i realised that she is not bad a person at times... Told her alot of stuff, alot of stuff that she didn knew last time. Clarified some stuff with her, some class stuff which i will never have tot of. some rumours too ^^

Talked to many different ppl too these few days! peggy is one of them =), told me many stuff! thx peg! Min yi too bah, she has been entertaining me almost everynite, even thru my unhappy times... sharing with me my sorrows and trying to cheer my up at the same time. thx alot sista, really... Xius at times too, give me her fair share of opinion on what things shld be settled and solved. These ppl are those that i've been neglecting bah, neglected last time. There are actually somemore... i just hope that i can show my frens more concern. i am truely sorry for neglecting you guys...

These few days i really think alot. i tot thru the days of my life, how it has been how it shld have been. but i've only settled with one thought, that is it is useless to regret over what that is done. i feel that what really matters is what i do from now bah. Also thru these days, i realised i've matured and that... the true old jason is back. i finally realise who the real old jason is now, maybe it is abit too late, but feel that it will be better for me in future bah.

BBQ on 16th has some obstacles, but i found ways to counter it ^^. will let u guys know it when i've confirm.

Layteng also ask me about staying over at the apartment. hmm, will ask dad tonite and let u know again = ]

Actually i made a new fren yesterday nite, i think that person shld know who he or she is bah... so i shldn't talk more about it le ^^

kk, that shld be all le... bye all!

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6:10 PM

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I am just plain stupid









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11:05 PM

Yay, finally updated my playlist in my blog. Took quite some time sia... but nvm, now my favourite songs are up le ^^

sian finished watching meteor garden both series le. must find new drama to watch and kill time. lol...

kk, going to sleep soon. tml got SIF Metro. bye all

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4:33 PM

Just came back from "Wai Po" house, celebrated her 77th b dae. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAI PO!

Was actually napping on waipo's hse sofa while waiting for all my relatives to come when this little cute cousin of mine, veronica, just came beside me and hug me... omg, ahha. then she whisper into my ear say " kor kor, i just came back from swimming." then pull me to get the cake and all that. lol, dam cute la ^^. next time take her photo then put here, she just 5 years old lor. haha... cute cute

anyway, woke up at 8 today to go jogging along the segar stretch and zheng hua park... on the way, thought of alot of stuff. but then was too tired to think more since i had to jog back home too lol. now finally found a way to stop having weird thoughts, that is to PUSH MYSELF TO THE LIMIT! my thigh area now really hurts sia, friday teck ghee training, sat alumni training, today jogging... haiyo, think next few days will rest at home le bah.

CANNOT! ^%^#$&%@% tml SIF metro with MIN LI! zzz... k nvm. meeting her early in the morning to go down tgt bah. then i think tuesday also the same lor.

Kh leaving for OBS tml and mik for japan. Take care and enjoy yourselves man!

Had been spending my nights talking to min yi and letting her entertain me, lol! lucky for her, if not i think i would have breakdown long ago le... THX SISTA! we shall continue tonite! lol...



Emotionless once again...

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10:19 AM

I have 2 ways now... and i'm not sure which one is the right one for me. i do not wanna regret...






Guide me thru this...

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10:11 PM

wah sian, maths holiday assignment sux la. stupid jc and xiao mei both say its easy. zzz... i not as clever la. haiz...

Anyway, today went for alumni training. Had lunch at lot 1 with the tkd ppl b4 going home. On the way home, i met charmaine. wah, like dam long nva seen and talk to her le. She has become more tanned and pretty le wor ^^, even had a BF now le. But i think she and her bf like very siao leh, both same timetable, same class, same CCA, i think after quite some time, they will feel very sian diao le. lol... by the way, we talked alot leh. like for 30minutes or so, just by standing in front of Macs where we met. Memories of the past were rekindled, especially sec 4 period de. We used to be super close frens, studying together and talked about almost everything wor. Still remember the O'levels period where we discussed History over the phone, grouping the many factors together to form 3-4 main factors... haha, those days were fun... JC life now like dam sian, not as fun as Secondary school le.

Hmm, now also abit scared to msg charmaine that much le, can't be as close to her as b4. haha, later her bf like her ex like that, call ppl to scold them for being too close to her in class. Like that time yikuan. Yikuan went to meddle with her fingers or smth like that then charmaine's bf just called yikuan and scolded him thru the phone. omg sounds dam scary la. This one ah, i think too over le la. maybe yikuan was wrong to do that but i also feel that her bf overreacted by calling and scolding yikuan. haiz, but who cares. for me, if someone i dun really know scolds me, i will just scold back. maybe fight still, i got a bad temper too. =/ lol...

Aiyo, finished watching meteor garden 1 le. duwan to start on 2 cause it sux, i watched it b4, not as nice as 1... now now now, lets see what else i can watch...

Okay la, nth much le...

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5:53 PM

DaoMingSi said: " Chong Jing Yi Hou, Wo Bu Hui Zai Wei Ni Zhou Ren He Shi. Chong Jing Yi Hou, Wo Men Hu Bu Xiang Qian..."

haiz...

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12:30 AM

Hmm, went teck ghee with jc, wan ru & min yi just now for TKD training coach once again. Saw joyce and kenny after so long le. not bad, haven been training in b ball court with some kids for quite a while le so this happy carefree feeling is great ^^.

Has been watching meteor garden once again these few days. Nth to do mah, so decide to get the old VCDs out to watch. Was actually quite nice la, just like the first time i saw it. Really admire DaoMingSi's love for Shan Cai, alot of parts in the show was so touching that i became so emo after watching it. But overall, it was a great show...

Going to alumni training tml, think only me, jc sikai and xius will be there bah. Monday & Tuesday still got SIF Metro with min li, haiz sian... Then come the fun day wednesday! Swimming with grant, wenzong, shan yuan & sis. ^^ then nth much to do all the way till saturday where there might be ECP BBQ with TKD exco and tonning overnite there. Haven really asked the ppl yet and book the pit. Need to hurry b4 no more pits are available bah.

Okay, going sleep le. Bye all...




Nan Yi Wang Zi Chu Ci Jian Ni,
Yi Shuang Mi Ren De Yan Jing...

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10:34 AM

Hmm, a phenomenon happened? SOCK UPLOADED THE PHOTOS! =) and here they are!

Presenting to you... BROTHERHOOD OUTING 5TH DECEMBER 2006!




B hood at the jetty!






Mik claims he was falling down o.O HAHA :P






Aren't they sweet? OMG, can't believe i just said that... but oh well ^^






All the monkeys gather up on the tree =]






For the Brotherhood once again ^^






The cute little monkeys on the right, LOL!






King of monkeys...






Guys, i think we need the zookeeper here. WILD MONKEY ON THE LOOSE! =P






On the trip back home after a long day of fun ^^






These ppl never failed to brighten up my day. Childhood playmates to teenage frens... I still remember the days when we are stupid enuff to just settle with Truth or Dare the whole day long, singing westlife songs and hanging out at xue ting's hse occassionally... those days are no longer there since we are older now but the spirit is still there!

Looking forward to the next brotherhood outing no matter where we might be going or what we may be doing, cause its not the events that matters... its the ppl you hang out with ^^.

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1:35 AM

WEEEE... brotherhood rox! outing was fun... we had fun... i had fun ^^

We went cycling around ecp till 5+6, climbed trees, took lotsa photos and did some catching up =) Photos are still with socko so wasn't able to upload it. But all in all, we had a true brotherhood outing tho some wasn't able to turn up.

Memories camed back when we were there. Memories of the first and only TKD outing with 12 exco members and one member - celine... lol! That outing was okay la, we had fun too but not as nice as this =P. cause this is the BROTHERHOOD OUTING! ^^

Dinner at bukit timah market there, had sting ray, satays, carrot cake, cha kuay teow and many many more... ^^ nice dinner and catching up there.

Went home and had a nice hot bath and here i am... BLOGGING ON A NICE DAY's EVENT! =] hope that there are more to come...



Brothers forever! i feel much better now... thx ^^

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4:54 PM

Just returned home from Thailand... 5 days of enjoyment?

Hmm... went shopping at various new places and praying as well. Went to Siam paragon which was super grand and nice, OWN our VIVO city upside down =) . Also wen to MBK centre, JJ. & Platinum shopping centre too...

Went praying on the mornings of 2nd and 3rd day till afternoon bah. Dunno the names of the places, only know that in one of the temples, mum and dad donated money for the coffins of the dead? sounds weird, but oh well...

And ya, i must specially mention this. there is this place in thailand that is super cool ^^. The place is a restaurant and it is called TAWANDANG German Brewery! This place is ultimate coolness la, it is a brewery itself which brew those german beer but inside it, there is this big hall with stage which is used as a restaurant. The stage is meant for performances such as arobatics and band performances. Had dinner there on the last night, the dishes were dam nice especially the Pig Knuckles ^^. And yea... the cost of the meal is also nice too, lol... The meal cost us 8000 thai baht :S But it was a treat from dad's thai fren and we enjoyed the meal alot, so quite worthwhile bah...

Then back now and here i am blogging. Was kinda disappointed when i reached the airport and on my hp... Only 2 msg received, one from LT asking about the outing tml and one from singtel about some promotion stuff :S But since i didn let much ppl know about it, this is just the outcome bah... nvm =)

K, tired le... i go rest bah..




Dang wo shou de gan jue
Qian dong zhe ni de lian...

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