Friday, August 31, 2007
11:15 PM
Story of a boy...
Borned into a happy family with parents who loved him and siblings who cared for him since the day he existed. He felt happy.
Since young, this boy had high hopes and aspirations. Though without a future career in mind, this boy wanted to do things which can make his family members proud of him. In fact, he wanted everyone that knew him to be proud of him.
At the age of 7, he was admitted to a neighborhood preliminary school. Together with 2 best friends, he went schooling everyday. School was a joy for him, he made more frens. Although school was fun, he was often bullied and teased. But this did not made this boy detest going to school, it just made him very unconfident of himself. It was all the way till the age of 12 that there is this big change in the boy's life, an introduction of many new characters that the boy deemed to important to him (at that point of time). This few characters he met made this boy thirst for an everlasting frenship, which seemed so promising to him at that time, and he went on to pursue it. Childhood memories engraved deeply in the mind of this young one as he grow up slowly with them, sharing both happiness and sorrow.
At first the boy met this young cute girl which he had a crush. After much attempts to improve on their relationship, they finally embark on their puppy love. But it was not long after things turned bad, the relationship did not but external obstacles did. This young couple was forced to be separated. The young boy suffered a trauma, he didn understand why this kind of things had to be done to him. At the young age of 14, this boy sunk into depression. The boy find no meaning in life, he even had suicidal thoughts. He felt that no one really understands him and that the purpose of his existence is vague. It was until this day when the boy saw this "thing" which started to interest him, give him the meaning to life. He pursued this "thing" in search for a new beginning, and found ppl who shared the same interest with him.
At 16, the boy finally realised that he cannot carry on like this cause this "thing" he had pursued isn't gonna to be everlasting and he had to return to reality. He began to spend more time with his friends, began to get back to life. It didn take too long for everything to go back to normal - the group of frens this boy had since young were back close together again. Going to school everyday, spending all the important moments of life tgt. They went around school making frens, establishing more frenships, though not as strong as the ones between them.
Days of his life became more interesting when the boy finally walk out off his phobia and met another girl, a girl which changed his life thoroughly. It was just by coincidence that things happened. The boy saw this girl in school everyday, and he started going crazy counting the number of times he saw her each day, trying to increase the number of times everyday. Not long later, the boy knew he had fallen for her and he had the intention of taken their relationship to the next level. However, constant "ignorance" of the girl made the boy disheartened to a stage that the boy was on the verge of giving up. quarrels between them were more frequent than ever. It was this very morning that the boy switched on his mobile and received a msg from the girl, the girl actually confessed to the boy that she had some feelings for him too and did not want their relationship to worsen. The boy was confused at that moment but went on to improve their relationship. Things seems to start off quite well and the boy was getting happier everyday. With each day pass, he yearned for the next to come just for another moment to spend with the girl. But things are always going against the boy and he doesn't knows why. Just when everything seemed perfect, the girl suddenly ignored the boy without giving a reason before breaking off with him after his persistent request to know the reason. How could it happen again? And the boy tot that this time it would last, everything was perfect. The boy couldn't take it anymore but he did not give up on the girl just like that ( the same thing he had did last time). instead, the boy did watever he could with hopes of gaining back the girl's faith in him though he did not know of the reason for her leaving him. Looking at the state of despair the boy was in, a trusted fren from the boy's band of brothers wanted to help him. He went the extra mile to get to know the girl better wanting to help the both reconcile. Things didn seemed to change much for the boy as anxiety intensify due to the boy's reluctance to drift apart from the girl. Finally this day came when the boy finally discovered something different, something strange taking place. At first the boy refuse to believe the things that he felt, putting them down thinking that he thinks too much. But when things just appear right in front of him, the boy just couldn't continue to run away from reality anymore. The fren who had intended to help him at first was together with this girl that the boy had liked. His heart was shattered, his faith was gone. Once again he didn know why such things happened to him. He tried to understand but it just seem so dramatic. Such things that could only be seen in cinemas actually happen to him. The boy couldn't bear to take this pain anymore, he left them hoping that the group of frens he was with before could lend him support. But unfortunately, it was to no avail. No one actually had time for this poor boy. Wimpy as he is( which many ppl would feel), the boy cried almost everynite in his sleep. there were even sleepless nites, with this thing filling his mind for a couple of months. When ppl would think that the worst had already come, it was proven wrong when the boy actually failed in his studies, his used-to-be forte. He did badly for a national exam. Some of his frens left him, he changed as a person, isolating himself from everyone. The boy had lost confidence once more, lost faith in friends who he had trusted - the whole group of them, lost faith in love. This time the boy had fallen too hard, fallen too badly and no one was there for him anymore.
For months, the boy hanged on. He relied on his parents and siblings for support. When he finally had the intention of not letting this series of happenings to continue affecting his life anymore, the boy had already lost a huge part of life. He struggled to lead a new life, he struggled to catch up with studies, he struggled to get back his long lost frens. But it was all too late, some of the boy's frens had left, the others had other commitments. One by one, the boy's good frens left him till he was left with himself. When he tot he was getting back on his feet, he actually wasn't. Time just passed as the boy sunk deeper into isolation. He had himself, and himself. All by himself, all with himself.
Sad for him.
You raised me up to walk on stormy seas, but now i'm finding it difficult to continue on...
sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
