Thursday, November 29, 2007
1:26 PM
9 days have past since the end of my A Levels. Alot of things changed these few days, even me.
The way i led my life last time - Wake up early in the morning, watch abit of TV, play abit of com, Study, Sleep early. The way i lead my life now - Wake up even earlier in the morning, on my bot, go back to sleep, go out in the afternoon, come home and bot, sleep late in the night. Social interactions seems to be out of my life, well, i dun really plan for much lately. Compared to last time, my social network have dwindled tremendously and for me now, i only hope to stay in touch with a few of my good frens. Whats the use of having so many frens when non are there for u. The promises made when we were young, the whole lot of time u spend together, it all sums up to nth when at the end everything was just fake. People prioritizes and when u know u are not their priority, it somehow creates a barrier between u and them. Its like since they do not treat u as their priority, whatever that happens to u, they wouldn't care more than a msg of "take care". Well, since this is life, we must accept it. Thats why little hopes shld be pin for the care and concern from ppl that do not treat u as their priority. Well, the worst case scenario will be when u made them ur priority and tot u to be theirs and it somehow turns out that u are not which made whatever u have done seems to be abit of redundant. This is the time when u take sides, u think carefully and u review on ur past actions to make life better for yourself. Being a selfish bastard since others dun care much about ur feelings too. Ya, thats life =)
Prom coming on 4th dec, I'm only left with maybe pants and shoes and i'm all set. In response to my last entry, i finally realize whats so different it is this time the prom from the last. This time round, i'm only going prom for 1 group of frens. Those that are sharing the same table as i do. Sorry to say that.
Japan trip somewhere after prom, going away from reality for few days, only with my loved ones. This time round, a decision had to be made again. This decision is only for me to know.
On a lighter note, i'm now a carefree bastard. =)
I'm unforgiven, this is the judgement that is passed.
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sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Sunday, November 25, 2007
2:34 PM
I dunno what to post but weirdly i just felt like posting an entry. Maybe i just needed a medium.
Had bbq at sam's yesterday, not bad quite enjoyable but tiring. Have been feeling quite lethargic almost everyday, might be the result of late nite sleepings. But then again, i love late night sleepings, cause it gives me some time of my own on my own. Thinking of the past, looking at the present and hoping for the future, my favourite pastime...
Few more days to prom, haven bought any clothes yet. Hmm, guess its time to stop slacking around and go shop for some prom stuff le bah. But this year's prom is so unlike last time's, i dunno how to explain but the feeling is different.
Aiyo, dun even know why i'm saying all this but hack la.
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sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Thursday, November 22, 2007
4:13 PM
Omg, dun be startled if anyone of u see me. You'll get what i mean if u guys see me =)
The end of A's, super carefree, but at the same time, i feel this sense of insecurity - that i'm not studying. Its kinda weird having this feeling, i dun know why too. Maybe thats human, we are just so contradicting. When u are studying, u yearn not to and when u are not, u feel that u are not fulfilling ur obligation. Haiz...
Going to shop for prom clothes too, fun man. I have the image of what i'll turn up like in my mind le, =) . But the worry will be the cost. How much do i really wanna waste for this prom, tix are already so ex le. Maybe its time to reconsider what to wear, or maybe just rent them since i will not be wearing them often.
Went swimming today at grant's house, quite fun, but heard a sad news. It feels bad since u dun know what to do about something that u want to do. Its even sadder when what u not do will affect someone more. What shld i do? But anyway, hopes it turns up fine.
Going for movie in a short while, watching Fred Claus. Wonder if its nice, maybe beowulf will be a nicer movie? Then again, heard bad comments on it like ppl go watch beowulf is for Angelina Jolie nia, not that the movie is nice =x
Okay okay, signing off here. take care guys =)
Call me Gracielo...
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sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
6:30 PM
Woots, econs over too. =) Now left Chem paper 1 on thursday and physics paper 1 on tuesday and... TO HELL WITH JC LIFE! ^^
But wth la, these 2 days sux, especially yesterday. Yesterday was really a Doomsday. First thing in the morning, i didn do too well for my chem paper 2, then i realised my MP3 player( x mas present from my dad last year) was stolen and lastly i returned home with food poisoning/stomach flu. Seriously, how bad can a day get? Anyway my MP3 wasn't the only thing the thief stole, grant's phone was stolen the day b4 that too. zzz, lousy school full of losers. What made matter worse was when i went to report to the office about this matter, that fucking OM actually have the cheek to answer back "u tell me this now what can i do?". LOL, this kinda school also have ah? But whatever la, jiu de bu qu xin de bu lai. Old MP3 stolen = new MP3 to be bought. =)
Anyway, almost didn manage to go school for econs today cause stomach flu dragged all the way till this morning before it turned better. Lucky sia, cause i realise there is no retest for A levels. Econs paper was how to say... the best i could attempt le? given that i didn study much due to stupid stomach flu that made me miserable the whole of yesterday and this morning. But whatever la, since its over we shldn't be bothered by it.
Few more days to end of A's, so dam happy. =) But actually for most of us, our A's end today cause the rest of the papers are MCQs and we have more time to prepare.
5 days without touching the com, sounds nothing to most ppl but considered quite a feat for myself le. LOL. Going to G.E. soon ^^ Kh got new com set so we can have no lag CW in G.E. WEEEE.... =]
Okay okay, preparing myself for post A's. Take care everyone and BE GONE STUPID STOMACH FLU!
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sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
8:38 AM
Hmm, its been almost a month since my last entry. In the midst of having A lvls now so not much time to blog, NEED TO MUG!
Well first and foremost lets talk about my A lvl experience, er... how shld i put it - not as simple as we thought it to be. Well our teachers always tell us, ur prelims get what grade, normally A lvl will get 2 grades higher. BULLSHIT! Well this may be true for O lvls, it is not really true for A's. For O levels, maybe its the school or smth, but i dun really find the papers hard. I managed to finish all the papers like in half the time given( only in ss and history did i used up all the time). However, this was not the case for A's - The time given were fully utilised. Whatever it is, i still have 5 more papers to go so yea, shld not think too much and work hard =) The same goes out to all my frens, we've come so far after so much hard work, its not clever to just give up at this moment.
Time really flies, few months ago i was just complaining why A lvls are still so far away and when can we ever finish it and now, i'm already near the end of it. Woots, lots to do after that. Going shopping for clothes, meeting up with lots of frens and of course GE ^^. 1 and a half month of enjoyment before 2 years of pain, better make it worthwhile. haha... Prom on 4th Dec but this time round, i don't really look forward to it. In the past(sec school), our prom were sort of compulsory so as the saying goes "the more the merrier", naturally it was more fun. But this time round, i think half of the cohort are not going for prom so it really defeats the purpose of having it in the first place. But whatever it is, since i paid --->>> 80bucks <<<--- for it, IT BETTER BE GOOD. Still wondering about life after A's, desirable but scary. Its like 1.5 months of really play and nth meaningful before i go into the army &^&#%^%@#%^$!%&. SERIOUSLY SIAN MAN. Its not like i don't like army but at least gimme 2-3 months of enjoyment ma, i struggled through this A lvls leh, "mei gong lao ye you ku lao", LOL.
Okay, nth to nag about le. Oh ya, to all the J1s, good luck on results on 9th nov, hope u guys promote =) Bye...
How will I know if there's a path worth takin'
Should I question every move I make
With all I've lost, my heart is breakin'
I don't wanna make the same mistakes
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sun set or sun rise;
up to us to decide
